Over time and by reading other Gunnutz sites I have come to realize that this site ( Gunnutz ) is somewhat of an old boys forum( not meant negatively ). When I first went on and got the responses I did I thought I was dealing with a bunch of as****es!! I realize now that I was wrong and that the hand of friendship was being extended and I was too new and maybe a little stupid to realize what was going on. I'm a big boy, old too, and can easily apologise when I realize I'm wrong. To WIN 94 and one other, whom I can't remember, I sincerely apologise for being a jerk and too quick on the trigger!! To GEOLOGIST and one other I now realize what you were saying!
Not that my personal situation is a valid excuse but I will explain. I am a retired and disabled commercial pilot/engineer who has gone through 2 broken backs, a broken neck and flesh eating disease. As such, I suffer from chronic pain to the point that I am on the highest levels and most dangerous pain killers known to man. There is no hope and I live day to day. As a drug addict, not mentally addicted but physically addicted, I become a different person when the pain is bad and the drug dosages are high. It is easy to say don't interact when like this but unfortunately, when the dosages are high a person like me disappears and someone or something else takes over. Not only Win 94 becomes my victim but unfortunately even my wife of 40 years. It is sad that this happens but if you have ever dealt with an alcoholic or drug addict, they are not the same person they normally are when sober. I guess this is the best analogy I can use. In addition, I lose all memory when the dosages are high and thus the reason I cannot remember everyone I insulted. Give me a chance and I'm sure I will redeem myself. If someone detects I'm being an as**ole, just tell me to go to bed and recover. Further, normally I cannot sit for more than about 10 minutes due to pain, so I have gone through a lot of pain to explain myself this a.m. and hope you will all understand. I own a hunt camp and have always loved being part of the lying, joking, pulling jokes lifestyle, so I'm sure the forum will become part of that lifestyle!
I will disappear for sometimes weeks at a time because of the illness but I will reappear when things get a little better. By the way, the accident that claimed me was when I fell off a beaver dam on a remote hunting trip. At the time I was a rescue pilot but couldn't be rescued myself because of bad weather. I spent 3 days in the bush with a broken back before being evacuated by land; the result being I am permanently disabled after 6 operations. Still no excuse for being a jerk but may help to understand.
Cheers to all.