i think this is the fourth time i've attempted to write a response, and perhaps i might actually post this one. i must say that i'm in awe at the depth of feeling that remain long after your first kills, as well as pleasantly surprised. hunters are not the 'cold blooded killers' that the media always portrays! heh i'm game for wrecking all my hunting-related preconceived notions and am looking forward to my first hunt

(albeit nervously and with ultimate respect)
i think if i can eat what i shoot, i may feel somewhat better about it. if i start with small game, is there enough left over to eat? it would seem like a waste of a life, in my mind, if i didn't put the bits to use. even if my first attempts at cooking them may not be gourmet masterpieces...
being so new to the shooting sports in general, i may be just trudging through the wild in full gear and watching this family do their thing, unless i'm sure of my shot. judging from the amount of animal heads on their walls, and their full freezers, they have potential to teach a lot of hands-on skills.
until then, i'll be researching and practicing for my fall debut. thanks to you all for the answers!