Warfare's a terrible Goddamn thing. We ask people to drop everything and go risk everything they have for an occasionally vague concept or a country that may or may not ever show any appreciation at all. Takes a special kinda person to sign up for that.
Those old fellows wore what they did their whole lives. Such a huge price to pay.
In my hometown there was a fellow who frequented the Legion. He shook so bad he had to two-hand his beer or spill half of it. I was told he'd been like that since they liberated the POW camp he'd been in. Poor man spent the last fifty years of his life a physical and emotional wreck because of something done to him in his 20's. Incredibly sad.
On November 11th I spare a thought for the survivors and not just the dead. A lot of those boys came home hurt and stayed that way. The lucky ones found ways to manage it, but many didn't. We owe them too.
DAD, they take men and now women, forcefully tear them out of their safe places, rip out their social engineered mores and put them into positions where they have to do horrendous things to survive. Some can bury it, some can't.
Then they bring them home, either in a flag draped coffin or alive, then maybe, try to give them a bit of reconditioning before dumping them unceremoniously back into the lives they had before they were drafted or signed on for in the military.
The rear echelon folks didn't have it so bad, for the most part. The thing is, they saw what was coming back and that was terrifying in itself. Then they went in and cleaned up the mess afterwards. I don't know which is worse.
Today, I would like to think that our troops are treated better, mentally conditioned for stressful situations and what they will have to do during those situations.
Some people just can't bear their perceived guilt and we often see/hear the results when the suicides are reported by the mainstream media.
What people do to other people, during stressful situations where their lives and the lives of others depend on what many consider to be atrocities is very difficult to live with and for some, the GHOSTS can be a powerful enemy, working on their minds, endlessly, with no rest.
It's extremely difficult to learn to live with those ghosts at first, but after a while they can become friends that are no longer eating you up inside. Just there for a visit.
It's like living different lives each time.
Many of the vets I've spoken with, hated coming out of the field for R&R. They felt they lost their edge each time, that edge that allowed them to do what they had to, or die.
Just imagine every single ideal you held, being ripped from your psyche by force, given a new set of ideals, completely opposite from the old ones, then being thrown back into a no longer normal to you society and not going through conditioning to be cleansed of the harsher set of ideals, being asked to ignore them and revert to the original ideals.
Sounds complicated??? It is. Most find a way to do it, but they're never the same and just don't fit well with others that haven't experienced it.
The old boys at my Uncle's unit reunion really let their hair down that day. One of them told me the next morning at breakfast, "That was the most comfortable I've felt in over 30 years."